I wonder if anyone gets it?

I was wondering recently. Maybe it is because I recently turned the frightening age of 40, maybe due to the circumtances that surround me, or maybe due to my own set of circumstances (that I will say I find myself in when really I am fully responsible for).

I have many, many friends (I really would like to add another many) who recently have gotten married or who are planning weddings in the near future. So many that I find myself one of the only single people I know, especially at age 40. In pondering this I realized that most of those people are mid-twenties to thirty years of age and are in that stage of their lives. To go on, (as I realized I am sometimes very dense) I realized that I also was in that stage of my life, amazingly, when I was in my mid-twenties. I was "in love" and got engaged and then planned a wedding and got married. And about seven years later I was divorced. I'm not lamenting this fact, just stating it. It was the right thing to do. As right as not getting married when I did and to whom I did would have been. It just hit me recently as I sometimes see that "poor Rona" look in my paired off friends faces when they see the lonely, single, 40 year old (some more than others), that I have been there, done that. Not that I don't want to ever do "that" again, but I needed to reinforce this to myself and then thought "I wonder if anyone else gets it?" There is a huge part of me that is happy as things are and a part that wants more.

I wonder how others see me, see my life and the choices I have made? Do they see the inherent errors in all living and learning? Do they pity me? Do they respect me? Do they understand me? Would they tell me if they did or didn't?

(I apoligize for my flagrent use of parentheses and quotation marks in this and all of my other writings.)