So, I have been having to deal with an unfortunate state of my own body that is making much sought after progress basically unreachable. Not only much sought after but actively and vigorously sought after. No, I'm not just wishing for change. I am pursuing change like a thief in the night who has taken a prized possession. And yet he still eludes me.
Now, what to do?
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Nothing.
Frustrating. Infuriating.
I could ask myself the question again. I could ask someone else the question. What is even more frustrating is that the ones there to help me with specific knowledge and even the ones who are friends who should be there to support me as I would be them don't get it. They do not understand. More upsettingly so, probably think I'm just not putting in enough effort. I am going to be brutally honest with myself now. I have not done 100% of what I COULD have done (more like 80%). I must say, in my own defense, working so hard towards a set goal and getting nowhere does nothing for ones motivation or perseverance. Now I have not stopped my heated efforts, but they have definitely cooled in the harsh light of this persistent state of "dormancy."
Dormant - adjective
-not actively growing; an inactive state when growth and development slow or cease.
The only thing I can come up with is "carry on." Keep going. Persevere. Tirelessly. I wonder how many others could go on when a goal so sincerely set and pursued is not coming to fruition. I have seen others embark on this same journey and make marked progress. This is even more infuriating. I have not only continued in my efforts but also sought to correct the issues keeping me stuck but to no avail. And yet, I continue to forge on.
Maybe my lesson is perseverance. To finally get from nowhere to now here.
