What do I want?

I was thinking about what it is I want. It led me to ponder: what does everyone want, humans, the peoples of this world in general. Is it a purpose in life or do we get more and more specific. Success. Wealth. Power. Popularity. Acceptance. Happiness. Peace. To feel "full."

Let's go one step further. There is one thing that encompases all this that suddenly comes to mind. To avoid suffering and/or pain.

I realize the validity of this as I can see in it most of my actions. Most of the time I can track backwards and find that most things I do are to avoid pain. There are so many flavors of pain out there. Failure, loniliness, mental anguish, loss, self critisism, ridicule, the feeling of being in quick sand, or just plain invisibility. It's so very different for every being and yet (maybe comfortingly) the same for every being.

I still feel more confident in stating it more poetically, we all want "peace" in order to live our life to it's fullest in our own unique way.

And what do you know, even after that archeological excavation into the inner reaches of the psyche I have come full circle. What do I want? The specifics remain elusive.

A Purpose, Your Purpose

I wonder how many others out there in the big wide world long for a purpose in life.

How many already have a purpose. How many have always known their purpose. How many have had to search for it or had to hunt for it like a agent searching for a serial killer about to make his next kill. How many are still searching longingly for a purpose. And even how many don't really see the need or have never even wasted one fleeting thought on the subject at all. How many have outright given up entirely on finding their purpose?

Me? Perhaps this will be enlightening...

heaviness in heart

uneasy, unsure, unknown

what to do? and how?